The Vast Now

 

635946939424314525-218159995_Start-Living-In-The-Nowthe other day i got a glimpse of this. probably nothing more than an idea or a concept. or probably a lot more. i shall leave that for you to decide anyway.

there is always the talk of the NOW in spirituality. i used to wonder a lot about that. and then i gave up. since all of that would be, once again, intellectual gibberish of words and nothing more, i did not bother myself with unnecessary mindstuff. but then again, these things have a way of visiting you, when you least expect it. many of you know that i mean there. so did the now. and here is what i found.

the now is very vast. it is void. void of time, void of any concept at all. it does not contain anything. and yet, because of that very nature, it has everything, inside and outside of time and space, since it is beyond both. there is a vastness of all ideas, all possibilities and all existences that may be there, even as possibilities, as well as realities. because of its nature, it is not definable in words, but rather felt as an experience of itself. and since i am the one experiencing it now, i am in the now and i am the now. and that can be a terribly expansive, scary feeling, if you want to call it that. i suddenly found myself in a vastness i could not get boundaries of, and yet there was a presence that was simple enough just to be here and of course, now. how can extreme simplicity and complexity be resident in the same breath or space?! well it was, and that is what now felt like.

there was all of me, all that wasn’t me, all that was my past, my present and all future possibilities were all there, and yet the birds were chirping, the beautiful fragrance of fresh morning air was there, gentle swaying of breeze, people moving about doing things, all were there. just another normal day. and yet, within this normal morning, was an extraordinary dimension of existence, of the now. it had all of me, so completely, that it dared me to completely accept me just as i was, in the now. everything. nothing excluded, since the now did not seem like it excluded anything or anyone, so why me? it also requested me to include all that was me in reflection of all the people i had ever known and met as me, since; again it was all inclusive. and so why the fear i wondered? perhaps it is in the vastness of it, as an experience and not a concept. it was not an airy fairy nebulous concept anymore. it was here. and i was experiencing it. without knowing what its size is, i knew it was vast. and because i was experiencing it, i was vast. and suddenly becoming vast, encompassing all of just you, as you, and knowing it all as beautiful and whole and complete, in one cold second? yes, the now can be scary. but this time around i enjoyed it. being lost in it without any requirement. without any need for running back into the security of what i had known.

can you accept all of you as you? it does exist you know. and you are it. without any modification or addition or subtractions or any this or that. you are that. for you always exist in the now. and that now is always available, here and now.

the barriers of belief

 

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if there is one strong energy, that blocks all of a humans progress into the unknowns and territories unexplained, it is the barrier of belief. and it is one very strongly tied into emotional security. the intellect does not require security, for it knows, it can always reason and find new avenues to discover and thrive from. whereas the emotional security is what humans normally call belief. it is a requirement on the part of the human, without any personal discernment. there is no credit given in a belief system, “to know”, “the gut feeling” or the intuition. beliefs are etched in stone, and that is the way it has always been. or so we are told. belief requires unconditional concurrence. it requires unquestioned faith. it requires followers. it requires a herd or a mob mentality for it to sustain itself.

and so humanity all over has this trait. especially in the old energy. for it was needed to somehow shepherd and monitor humanity into a proper direction by giving them a set of structured beliefs and systems thereof. and then it became the well known tool for power people to use and misuse for their own benefit. but above all, this highest strength is not even that. it is the personal. the immediate family and friends. the community next to the human. if a person choses to step away from that stronghold of belief, he or she must face consequences of emotional isolation. or so it had been, once again in the older energies. social ostracization. mockery. isolation as a result. and so in the older energies, very few got of the wheel of mainstream beliefs and systems.

now the energies of the planet have changed. there is new consciousness of questioning everything that was old beliefs, ideas and structures. and it is everywhere in the world now. people are waking up from a dream. and the very first hurdle they encounter, is the barrier of belief. can they step away from what they were taught and told. can they go with the awakening happening in the silent depths of their being. can they discover what this calling inside is all about? and it has already begun. the awakening of humanity is upon us. and it is vital to know, that there is no one stopping you now, to cross the barriers of belief. it is vital to know, that you have many who are feeling the same way you are, and are stepping out of the box they were born into. for humans take courage from other humans. and it is vital to realize, that you are not alone in this. there are many. perhaps around your in your workplace, in your community, town, village and perhaps even among your friends. for many, this will be a source of great courage to boldly step forth. they would need it. for many others who do not need that kind of support, are already there, waiting with their hands out to you. expand your family. remove your blinders of culture and beliefs and truly see. you never know what you might find.

divinity or drama

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so much of human divinity, is dulled by drama, its amazing for me to see it every day, every hour almost. it is almost like, there is never a time, when there isn’t any of that. the human duality is really strong i must say!! there is the repeated talks of this and that, worries about this and that, all the rights and wrongs about this and that. to lace it all there are personal voices that echo through the being. the voices in the head. the feelings in the heart. all constituting so much of noise! and is it any wonder, that we search for peace. both outside and inside.

divinity can only be tuned into. it is not there by default. just like tuning into a radio station. one must go there with intent. and just intent isn’t enough. for humans have always that laundry list of things they want, desire need, wish, crave. so how does one go there? if at all. and does it take a guru, a spiritual leader, or a holy book to get you there? or could divinity be really that simple and accessible to your everyday hour, minute and second? one should ask a lot of questions about divinity. and who best to ask such questions about divinity, than divinity itself! doesn’t it make sense that one should ask about god TO god? no human is qualified enough in that department. because there is always that duality playing strings within the hearts and minds of humans. there is always that energy of doubt, skepticism and suspicion that lurks when even listening to divine truths isn’t there? and if indeed there is a divine, and it has been said everywhere, that divine is omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient? then isn’t god everywhere, even here now with you, reading through you? in fact, if you really looked at it, try asking yourself in the thick of any drama that you are in at any time, “god is here watching all of this, so what would god make of this?” you might find that very soon, there won’t be much energy to carry on the drama, if you do it really sincerely.

and yet, human duality is always there. there is always the differences of opinions. there is always that mind, that doesn’t want to lose: even it be spiritual right and wrong ways to go about contacting god. fortunately for us, there is no battle in love. there is no disagreement in compassion and caring. there is no dissonance in appreciation of beauty. so why not start making your phone calls to god, in those moments. the moments when you’re in joy, in love, in compassion and caring. just start a conversation with your own divinity. you never know who or what might talk back  to you! and in what shape or form. or through whom or what. and if and when you do , you might then begin to realize that to know your own divinity feels right. it feels like the place to be. no justification needed. no special front row seats there. most importantly, no dramas or attitude. and you’ll feel it in your own way, your own time and just the way it feels right and comfortable to you. you don’t have to believe or accept anything. there is no controls and compulsion like the human fabricated ways of living. most of all there is no place for fear. can you imagine a place without fear inside of you? that is the only place with true peace. a peace without any understanding of why or how or who or what.

what is spirituality and what is not

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on the seekers path, as one really has no concept of what one is seeking, other than an invisible “push” from within, that drives one into exploration of all sorts; i observed that i tended to absorb new concepts, call them “my own” for a little while and discard them equally quickly moments later. now those moments maybe also in years or months, depending how much i explored and what universe presented to me as evidence of my own inner growth. this, as one can imagine was quite confusing for me, and it still is; and in some ways i guess it is confusing. to me and my mind at least🙂 and so even here now, at this stage, i wanted to share some knowing, perhaps understanding could be a closer word to describe it, of one of illusions that got shattered in me, along this path.

and that illusion is the identity of the seeker himself, herself. and since these days spirituality itself is such a fad, like perhaps even meditation or yoga is. its the next “in” thing there is on the social media and people are suddenly “spiritual” in their status or in real life, doing this modality of healing or that one, just to be “in the game” is it not. social isolation, after all, is a profound fear for us humans. it does not really matter where and how one enters into this path really, whether as a fad or whether as a serious quest. because what i have found, is that ultimately, all are spiritual, knowingly or unknowingly. all are “on this path”, whatever that mysterious path may be or may be not. because i have come to experience, that one is simply not limited to what one believes oneself to believe or hold as their truth. and the truth, quite simply, is beyond the mental perceptions or what mind can hold. so it has been told by many a wise men and women. saints and realized masters alike. but again, everyone who calls themselves a seeker or one on spiritual path, should always always recognize, that just about everyone else, even the most non-spiritual person you know, even the most hardened criminal you can see on the news, even the darkest thing you can imagine, so to speak, is still on a spiritual path. that may be perhaps, the most difficult thing for many spiritualists to admit. for now, instead of the normal everyday ego, you have a spiritual superiority ego. substitute one with another, and yet there is no compassion or wisdom in making anyone “less than”  is there?

so i submit to you, of what i have learnt, that there is divinity in all. at least in whatever i have known. and it presents itself to you, only in a way that you are open enough to receive. one of the first thing all spiritualists old and new age or any other category you may call, lightworker etc etc, could do well with, right away, is in discarding the notion or the remotest belief of a soul being higher or lower etc. a soul is a soul. always pure always with god/spirit. and although the human may choose this way or that way, does not make the soul pure or impure, but just a choice they are exercising which they have been divinely gifted with. it would be wise not to put yourself as a soul in a pedestal, for you will sooner or later see, that this simply isn’t the truth. and you will stop welcoming the truth that is always there, from opening to you, if you keep denying whats in front of your nose all the time. so all are spiritual, really. everyone you know or have read about. not just you or i . and its always been that way. always. the idea that one is higher, or lower, spiritual or non spiritual, is all duality based experience, as it is necessary and beautiful. you are beautiful, lovely, and sacred as you are! blessed are all 7 billion here who are all here to participate and enjoy the experience in physical form and this beautiful earth.❤

Two phrases

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As always there are energetic roots to everything we as humans do, whether it is in thought or action. so here are two phrases,i would like you to use, and see for yourself if it has an energetic change inside of you. you can feel it in your being, if you do it with feeling. the best thing about this is, it need not be understood, only said in your mind or out loud when you’re quiet and alone.

first phrase is this: everything is here always. i repeat: everything is here always. feel that in your being. some beauty about the truth of that phrase, is quite beyond our rational brain thinking. now your rational side will be questioning on a rampage like “wait a minute, thats not completely true… and this and that and this and that “. so once again just say to yourself ” everything is here always”. there is that peace again. an unnamed peace. an assurance without knowing. and since this is more of an exercise in feeling and shifting rather than a mental explanation, i would rather leave this one and the next phrase one, without any personalized explanation. since all experience is unique, yours will be as well, and for me to explain would serve no purpose since your being and energies would bring that extra special uniqueness to it, that any volume of my explanation simply cannot.

second phrase is this: something or the other is happening all the time. i repeat: something or the other is happening all the time. again, feel that. there is that flow of peace again. that truth without any reason or understanding. maybe its just stating fact, but the energies it brings in your system are very unique.

so use these two phrases, and as often as you can, and feel into every area of your life that those shifts bring you.

the luxuriousness of awakening

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there is a certain energy to an awakening soul. and feel into this, as you may have already known in your own awakening experience. it is a sense of spacious luxuriousness. and i am not just speaking here of those countless aha moments or epiphanies that is so common to all awakening souls. but a luxurious feeling. its more in the feeling space first and then travels, so to speak, to the mental space where thoughts and reasoning happens. a luxuriousness of breathing easy. of walking slowly. smelling the breath itself. blinking slowly perhaps. staring at things or surroundings or people as you walk by in the streets longer perhaps. a feeling of being luxurious within ones own skin and body, is strongly indicative of just one of the many so called symptoms of awakening. and this isn’t very commonly recorded in many places, as i have come across. but you know its there.

that languid stretching into what is being comfortable within ones own skin is something i have seen within other beings who are awakening also. it is unnamed. there is no earthly way to describe the feeling except in pointing towards that. it has a quality of having a lot of smiles, a lot of sighs, and it maybe something because you see and you observe perhaps something you’ve never quite seen in that before. it may not be necessarily be something new. it maybe perceiving something already there with new internal feeling about it. its more than just bland awareness. it is more feeling as well. it is more than a feeling. it is the feeling of a childlike sheer curiosity and wonder. it is a sensuality and yet it is beyond sensuality. it is not sensuality as an external temporal experience, rather feeling and becoming it as a whole being. it is dancing to an unheard tune and  yet music and dance become a blend that resonates into it. dancing and art become a natural extension to this luxury. not something that is to be done, but an extension of it.  even daily chores and work start becoming extensions of luxuriousness. safety and protection start seemingly going away from you in stages. for what is there to be safe or protected against, when everything is conspiring to embrace you in its arms and just play with you. there is that again. play. but a play not born of hurriedness or competition, but just an ease of luxuriousness, a slow dance. sighing a lot. a lot! at the beauty and cuteness of everyone and everything around. of course it has always been beautiful. but now you see it!

so you see, how this can become an expanded sensual living, moment to moment, day to day. obviously one does not want or have the desire to veer away from such a state. perhaps it is one reason why masters of yore and present, are just content to sit and contemplate the beauty in them, around them.

illusion within self discovery

 

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one of the illusions i discovered within self discovery, was pretty unconscious. as everything in seeking is concerned, it is always a path tread, with so many seeming obstacles, which are essentially not, but we perceive it that way, since, to begin with, we are an unconscious entity, trying to seek or know the truth of who we really are, as a being. so it does become a case of a blind man leading another blind man. so where does one start or proceed, in a world littered with everyone trying to throw in their own spiritual coin of faith, order, belief, wisdom, practices and teachings at you, saying this one is right and that one is better. indeed it can be very challenging. but the irony of this is, one with the inner strength usually proceeds. the one who is unto the challenge proceeds anyway. just constantly exploring and growing in baby steps, but moving forward nevertheless. not by faith or teaching or wisdom, but just by some unknown inner  bravery. the part of the world which is not into seeking, usually calls them mad or eccentric to even attempt such a task.

and so today, i am guided to point out one such fallacy that i was under, that came to into light for my inner perception to see and be recognized for what it is. the fallacy is this. somewhere along my seeking, i had always assumed that spiritual seeking would “get me from point A to point B”. and in a linear bias that i have as a human being, that meant, transition. transition of physical? mental? emotional? going from one physical place to another? change of life from one type to another? one or all of those i guess. i say i guess, because i am still unravelling the energy of the whole intuitive feeling i received. but never in my wildest dreams did i imagine, that it would arrive right where i stood and there is no real “going or coming” anywhere! the seeker should know this. most seekers start the journey by trying to explain or understand deeply the meaning of some tragedy of their lives or a deep seated sadness or shock. maybe health, maybe death of someone or loss of some kind; which is unexplainable or mind cannot comprehend the depth and scope of why it happened. that “why” pulls one into a quest of seeking. when any mental or logical explanation is not enough, one turns towards spiritual. when prayer or the comfort of religion is not enough, one begins a seekers path. but the very words like path, implies an illusion that one must go somewhere, someplace. what if it isn’t going anywhere at all. fine. some gurus would have you believe that you sit at one place and go inward. i tried that. gets boring after a while when nothing seems to happen. but the good news is that your very act of actively seeking itself, pulls the solutions you seek and answers toward you. you pull it like a source of gravitation for answers you seek. its not so much about going anywhere so much as questioning everything, and i mean everything. the only real discernment you have, your only guidepost is your inner intuition. and as you continue to seek, external and internal, this inner voice grows in strength and volume, so one cannot help but hear very loudly. almost like someone speaking in your physical ear itself.

so today, i just like you take this much with you. truth will arrive at your doorstep. and yet it feels like you’re actually going somewhere. it is one of the paradoxes of seeking itself. do not be consumed with why this is so. there is no need to. the mind simply cannot comprehend whats beyond its own capacity. and something beyond the mind, will educate the mind itself, as it brings greater joy, healing and love into your hearts and minds. what seems like traveling or moving, will seem halting and stationary at times. at other times it feels as if things are whizzing past you at dizzy speeds. and yet you’re still there. standing. breathing. thats the way it feels many times. try not to be consumed with questions and a mind that would seem as if it is spinning out of control. you’re not. you’re simply here and now. more aware and more sensing all of the time.